vetiveroil

 October 6th, 2025 This weekend, I blew a lot of money in an attempt to self-soothe. My most used coping mechanism (binge eating) is no longer an option - so I suppose I'm working on the next best thing. If that doesn't have the kick I need, I might have to start compulsively sleeping with strangers (JK!).  Yesterday, I got a facial, and Persian food for the second time in a row. I tried eating so much that it came right back up, which didn't help. I called out of work, because I was afraid that in addition to my personal and academic life crumbling - my professional life would be at the mercy of my flared temper.  I am frustrated . About many things, and it is coming out in the form of a really intense iciness I don't display very often. One that I am actually deeply uncomfortable with and ashamed of .  Today after class, my professor spoke with me briefly and suggested that I drop the course. She reminded me that the deadline to do so was in November, and that I'...