vetiveroil

 February 19th, 2026 Today I listened to a Dean Blunt song and took me back to the optimism of last Spring. Perhaps my expectations were a little high, I think reality was a lot more muted than I wanted. I spent the entirety of that Summer pining over [redacted] only for it to crumble by September.  By all accounts a let down, and a bit of a traumatizing experience because it was the first of  many let-downs (some still occurring) after a loooooooong pause. They say Neptunian influence over the 5H/7H can create distortions and I don't discount that. I'm beginning to catch that in myself. I looked at [redacted] and saw everything I ever wanted in a person, but never felt confident existed in real life. Then, one day, in the middle of Brooklyn, it appeared briefly, and didn't reappear for some time. I caught a glimpse of it and when I tried to reach for it openly, I think I lost the plot.  I realized only when it became impossible to ignore any further that not onl...

September 8th, 2025 ♦ I'm thinking of you I'm thinking of you Thinking of you Why can't I tell if you're into me? I'm on nine, you're on five Been away for a couple of weeks Could be more 'cause I lost track of time Driving on the wrong side thinking of you On the tenth floor, thinking of you And it isn't like me to be insecure Oh, what have you done to my mind? Oh, oh, wanna be with you, wanna be with you Oh, my God, I'm a mess Boy, you got to me, got to me You know you got to me Try to forget about you, with no chance I wasn't looking for romance Blue skies but I'm in the dark Waiting for someone to come pick me up Uuh uuh, oh, oh, I'm thinking of you, I'm thinking of you Uuh uuh, oh, oh, I'm thinking of you, I'm thinking of you I'm thinking of you I'm thinking of you In the hills with the windows down, Telling me he wants to show me around He knows somebody with the fancy house On the playlist, soon to be famous He ...