vetiveroil

​June 18th, 2026                                                                  Fear Journal #1:  * I fear these projects going horribly wrong as soon as I leave, and my colleagues speaking negatively about me, and not being able to defend myself or my reputation.  * I fear everyone hating/resenting me.  * I fear not doing well socially or professionally going forward, trying to leap forward, and falling flat on my face.  * I fear losing this opportunity, and backsliding financially.  * I fear not being able to resume my studies and capping my upward mobility.  * I fear this daily commute being too psychologically taxing to continue on.  * I fear this person I have begun befriending is an enemy in disguise and I am being played without realizing it.  * I...